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Alain Bijoux

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Close your eyes, [b]I got you now[/b]

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Student (Early Childhood Edu.) & Part-time Bartender.

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Sanctum Uni Dorms

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Unawakened

On paper, Alain is an average boy. At an average height of 176 centimeters with a slim build (approximately 53kg), he doesn’t stand out. He has a fair skin with ash blond hair, which is kept short and swept forward in loose spikes with a lock left long on the right side of his face. There is a natural black streak in his hair.

He has segmental heterochromia. This means his eyes consist of purple on the top half of his iris and yellow/gold along the bottom curve of his pupil.

Since accepting his sexuality, Alain feels comfortable in his own skin and body and does not care much if he happens to fit the stereotype or not. Outside of work, he tends to wear hoodies, shirts and vests in any possible colour. He might go out completely dressed in black and white one day while rocking a bright yellow sweater the next.

If anything, he comes across as friendly and approachable. Always wearing a bright smile on his face, curious eyes and a non-threatening attitude all around. He might appear nervous or uncomfortable around new people, but will quickly find his place and end up being a friendly, enthusiastic boy that never fully lost his childish charm.

Recent events have created a scar right by his left temple, though it’s not too big and generally hidden by the long lock of hair. Small, barely visible scars also stretch over the back of his hands.

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[h1]Personality[/h1]
Alain is nothing if not empathic. He is an attentive listener who encourages the dreams and aspirations of others. He is attuned to his feelings and wears his heart on his sleeve. Unafraid to show physical affection, he often reassures people by holding their hand or stroking their arm or shoulder.

He is soft-spoken, reflective and observant. As attuned to his own feelings as he is to those of the people around him. Being thoughtful and respectful makes him a great friend and a loving partner. This gentle nature compels others to protect him.

Thinking positively instead of focusing on the negative is what keeps Alain in his signature good mood. He tries to treat others kindly and not to rush life. Where most people suffer from overcommitment and a chronic need to rush, Alain generally enjoys what he does and just tries to make the most of it. Whimsical as ever, he can liven up serious moments with good-natured levity.

Free-spirited and easy to get along with, he enjoys being with people and likes to have fun. He does not like to waste opportunities and isn’t afraid to show his exuberance. Bubbly and optimistic, he can bring up the mood in a room and will encourage people to try new things and chase their dreams. Once inspired, he’ll also becomes compelled to turn dreams, whether his own or another’s, into realities.

His affectionate personality is most likely caused by overcompensation for a lack of physical love by his parents. He has become needy, having a fear of being alone or abandoned. He lacks confidence and sticks close to the people he does feel comfortable with. Insecurity causes constant doubt, as well as the habit of blaming himself, adding shame to the toxic mix of self-doubt and fear.

A giver, not a taker, he has a habit to decline help or refuse to admit he needs it. Add to this the need for affirmation and acceptance, and he ends up being easily manipulated and abused by those who would take advantage.

Oversensitive and aware of this flaw, he recognizes his own sensitivity and inability to cope. This has turned his frustration inward, only decreasing his own self-worth. This has made him an easy target for bullying in the past, being viewed as weak or immature once the tears start to fall.




[h1]The Past[/h1]
Childhood was perhaps the easiest part of Alain’s life. What would later on be called ‘queer’, was still very much ‘cute’ in these early days. His parents loved dressing him up for pictures and did not mind the child’s lively personality. He wasn’t as insecure as he would later prove to be, instead rocking the playgrounds with a confident and bright personality.

When his little sister was born, Alain cared for her deeply. As a true big brother he’d spend as much time with her as was allowed, helping mom feed her with the bottle and holding her in his arms until she’d sleep. He vowed to protect her once he knew the dangers of the world, a promise he intends to keep.

While childhood was easy, Alain discovered what being different truly meant during his early and later teens. Bullies found him an easy target and his self-esteem lowered with every comment that was thrown in his direction.

One might say Alain wasn’t alone during this period, as he did have plenty of friends who invited him to hang out. It wasn’t at school where he felt most alone, it was at home. Trying to talk to his parents about the issues he was facing was never met with sympathy, but with their genuine effort to solve the problem. Talk to a doctor, to the teacher, to the parents of these bullies. Find a hobby, stop secluding yourself in your room. Solution after solution, but never what he truly needed: a hug and a ‘you’ll be alright’.

So driven to fit in, he ended up with a girlfriend. She was manipulative at best and made him feel wrong for not being attracted to her in the ways she needed him to be. It was always his fault, she’d always feel like she wasn’t enough. He sunk deeper and deeper, until he hit his own rock bottom.

What his parents do not know is that the medication given to him by his doctors, when his anxiety and depression reached their lowest point at the age of sixteen, caused him to dip his toes in illegal medication when friends suggested it would help him calm down. For a little while, things were good— until they weren’t.

He realized this wasn’t the way to go in time and took a step back to really evaluate his life. He broke things off with the girl and entered his first relationship with a boy. This was supposed to be the point where things would get better, where he would finally learn to accept himself. If only it were true.

‘Just a phase’, his parents called it. ‘Just you. I’m straight,’ the boy would tell him. And Alain let it all happen, because it was all he deserved. He let himself be a dirty secret, didn’t care that the other was ashamed to be with him. After all— who wouldn’t be?

The break-up felt like the worst thing ever, but ended up being his very best decision. Guided by his psychologist to end a toxic relationship, Alain finally learned to pick himself before others at times. He stopped hiding from the world and accepted, again by the psychologist’s suggestion, a job at a local café. It was tough and there were many times where he thought he’d quit, but eventually, the boy ended up opening up. The once so shy and broken boy ended up smiling brightly. Once again, life was looking up.

Leaving behind his teenage years, early adulthood was far easier for Alain. He learned to speak up for himself and found a place he could truly call his own in the small café where he learned to brew coffee and smile at customers who made him want to check out of life early.

Finding more and more friends, Alain was truly living his best life. He had only just enrolled in university when his father was offered a new job and, if it had not been for his persistence, he’d have been forced to move with them. Instead, he got to move into the University Dorms with his friend Mat.

Now, Mat had always been a bit odd. The kind of guy who did not easily make new friends, but Alain never quite understood people’s prejudice when it came to the boy. They thought him cold or even rude, but to Alain, he was nothing but kind and endearing. He didn’t let others invalidate his friendship and continued to hang out with the guy, unable to see the issues at hand.

As an easy person to get along to, Alain did not often fall out with people. But this one guy, Casimir ‘Diablo’ Noirceur managed to pull out another side of him. They’d bicker in class and, in an effort to get the two to get along, got forced to work together. Alain thought his life might as well end right there. What was he going to do with Diablo?

Meeting him while drunk had never been on his agenda either, though he does not regret it at all. Nearly forcing the other to take care of him in a drunk state and ending up spending the evening together was… pleasant. Seeing the softer side of the other made Alain hungry for more. Or maybe that was the alcohol.

When Diablo came by the next day, a fight ended up happening. He doesn’t know why, he just knows he does not regret taking in the bruised and broken boy who refused to call his parents. It took the Titanic, another fight and a fall of trust, but the two grew closer in such a short time, that Alain can barely remember it ever being different.

And, maybe he never intended to fall in love, but he did. While many do not understand, his parents most of all, there is nothing he would change about the boy. He’s undeniably in love, a truth written all over his face for any who wishes to read. Their road may not have started out easy and their trauma may never truly go away, but there’s nothing that would make him let go of that hand in his.

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